Share Your Story: Toxicity in Yourself or Others
By Debbie
Who is/are the toxic people in your life? Or is it you?
I think it's both, but what's sad is when I try to be positive ... I allow these toxic people to take me down and then because of my mood disorder, I can overreact in response and look like the bad guy. I have had my fair share of interaction with those who are never wrong or hardly ever admit it.
Your diagnosis or that of the toxic person is:
Bipolar II
Describe the toxic behavior:
Overly critical and nagging, never wrong, never apologize.
What's the effect of this toxic behavior?
Makes me behave badly out of frustration and inability to cope properly, when my attempts to have an adult conversation are constantly responded to as though my opinion, feelings and experiences have no merit. Since I don't get a chance to resolve these matters in appropriate way, the frustration builds until I blow-up at the person or even possibly some innocent person who is the target at the time. One person even said, I train people to talk down and demean me by being self-deprecating or even too nice. So I definitely need to change this behavior.
Lessons Learned
- Meds are helping regulate moods, but also am seeking better coping mechanisms when feeling overwhelmed and frustrated.
- Learning not to put myself down or apologize, if I was not wrong.
- Learning to be more assertive to avoid inappropriate anger
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